The Other Side of Me

Saw the new taiwanese in school today, brought back many memories of the taiwanese that came last year.
Been a year, time passes really fast.
Kindda miss them, and the times we had in taiwan. Can’t really remember much when they were in Singapore though, hanging out with the TJ people, still think that taiwan is so much more fun than Singapore.

Jetstar has a promo to go to taiwan for $205, that’s the cheapest so far. (: Was talking to the roomies about planning a trip to taiwan for all 80 of us and all, but was talking to my mum today, and she said that she might not have the money for me to go. Sigh ): but i’d still try to plan for everyone i hope.

Saw my buddy’s new blog, she emailed my mum but not me ): What’s our friendship coming to. I miss her and her super adorable brother and sister. and the weather in taiwan! (speaking of which, the sky is really blue today)

Taiwan. Nostalgic.

P.S Thank you for everything so far, 6 months and going. (:

I know i’ve changed the minute i realised that i’ve stopped seeing the world with childlike innocence.
I find it hard to trust you now.
And it dawned on me, that the world is not as nice as i thought of it to be.

Today’s my forth consecutive day not going to school. URGH. Stupid fever keep going up and down and up and down. Had to trouble so many people to take results and all for me, sorry! Just puked, hope i’m well to go tomorrow ):

38.0 WHY OH WHY. ):

Got sent home today after the 2nd temperature taking. 38.1 degrees. Went home, slept, took temp again, 38.9. Hope it isnt h1n1. My whole family’s sick. My sister was the one who first got a temperature, and then it was my mum, and now it’s me. That lucky shit didnt go school for 4 days. Haha and i didnt want to go home today, first time can pon and i didnt want to. Something seriously wrong with me. 

Heard that my chi lit got higher than my maths. That’s damn surprising. 

Sorry games gang for not being able to go today! ): 

shall go back to sleep.

Realised over the week: 

That i had been making time for those who dont have time for me, and dont for those who do.
I need to be shot.  
Really tired of always taking the initiative and making the first move. I always believed that the world is a beautiful place, but reality hits hard, and i guess people just disappoint you all the time. And so, i’ve decided to take a break a few weeks back, to not plan group outing anymore until the A’s are over. Afterall, i guess it’s better to spend time with those who really cherish you. And one thing i’ve learnt from here: never depend on other’s for your own happiness. Should have learnt that a long long time ago, but it didnt really hit me, until someone depended on me for their’s. And that’s when, i see. 

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Met up with mengmei today for transformers! haha the plot was so predictable, and i think the fighting scene between the robots were like 20min long. was kindda bored, which explains how my hand was flinging around and split all the popcorn on the cinema seat! ooops. ): other than that, the action’s really great! 

Games gang outing tomorrow! (: can’t wait to see them after so long. haha it’s like our tradition to play board games together after exams, though i just played on monday during g2 outing.

Kbox on tuesday was really awesome. Wan Ting is so crazy la! HAHA she screams, not sing. I love my eclub gang. Craziest bunch of shit ever. haha. And i must admit, it was really fun bullying kenneth. (sorry man!) Finally getting to bully people, instead of how my i&e comm keeps bullying me. (ah, the parallels of life). And rachel wore dress for like the first time omg! We just love to interrupt couples having privacy by the river. Saw one couple that was on the verge of like booking a hotel room la please. At esplanade. And then we went around like tourists, touring one fullerton and fullerton hotel, getting chased out of the “glass frame” by the security guard, and then settling down outside the asian civillisation museum for a nice talk. (: love them all.

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Did you know, that by (i dunno which year), one in two people will have cancer? ): got news yesterday that cancer had taken away the life of the parent of someone dear. Yet again, 2nd time this year. My sister cried upon hearing it, and i was so numbed. which i didnt know why. Life is worth treasuring. I really hope that the family will have the strength to bear the loss. I know if it’s me, i wont. And we really shouldnt support diamonds. Firstly, the diamonds are the product of many innocent lives at sierra leone. and, yet again, the wake is at the diamond room. (i know this has no link). Cancer is scary, and i hope you are alright. Or will be alright soon

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Never, never, impose your beliefs upon others. 
You left me so lost for words, and now i know my faith is not as strong as i thought it was. But i know, i wont have to face this alone. 

Weird how i’m not as attatched to my mac as before. Still remember when i was in secondary school, i’d practically be online every single night. And now, it’s like i wont die even if i dont touch my comp for 2 weeks?! (but quite unlikely since there’s so many emails flooding in asking me to do work haha) Maybe it’s because i’d rather spend time with people, rather than talk to them online (: dont see much point in chatting online, cause half the time, either side will probably get distracted, and move on to do something else, and at the end of it, you won’t really remember what the content of the conversation was about anyway.

COMMON TESTS ENDED YESTERDAY! omg omg omg i’m one happy shit. haha, must admit i didnt spend too much time this hols studying for it. if there was ever any studying done in the first place, would most prob be on the last few days of the last week of the hols, and the nights before the real paper itself. (not really nights considering the fact that i sleep by 11+ HAHA). But anyhows, i’m keeping my fingers crossed that i’d at least pass something! Didnt put in much effort so cannot expect the best results right. And the papers we quite screwed up, especially HISTORY OMGGGGGG. how can they test on something that wasnt even taught yet! TSK. but i’d work harder for prelims, yupyup i will. need to find the crescent pearlyn back!

ANWWWWW POST EXAM ACTIVITIES = <3
met up with the roomies for lunch yesterday at F.I.S.H. awesome place, we tried to con the shop that we were not sharing the free flow salad bar, but they found out anyway. haha. caught up on so many stuff. really really happy! and the thought of going back to taiwan again is so exciting! (and since i promised to plan after common test which is now, i shall go about finding out the air ticket prices and blah soon!) haha i hope the 80 people in the programme wont be too shocked when they find a mysterious email lying in their mailbox.

and then, went to meet the g2 gang for cynthia’s surprise bday party! haha (: i was late and so assigned the task to buy the balloons. imagine carrying 4 aluminium foil winnie the pooh balloons and walking in the rain, with the balloons dangling out of my rainbow umbrella. omg malu to the max. and why am i always the one in charged of getting balloons! haha. but anyway it was really fun catching up as well. (: jeanne, lizard and cynthia. oh man, must meet up more okay! it’s a really wonderful feeling catching up with old pals!

dinner was at bomber’s. its a must-have after every exams! american brownie + chocolate milkshake = the best. (: love it love it love it. after every exam i must eat these! either that or max brenner’s. sigh, no wonder im growing so fat. >:’[

actually during the whole course of the common tests, what kept me alive were lists. TO DO lists for every subject, TO DO lists to catch up on after the common test (which is those stuff that need to study but cannot study finish in such a short period of time for the common test), TO MEET lists for my june hols, appointments and all, TO MEET lists for after common tests (which is now!!! haha i’m gonna dedicate 2 weeks to just PLAY like mad, before settling down to study again, mugger image is working omg), TO DO lists for A’s (i keep adding to this list when im studying, always daydream about how after A’s would be like. haha), TO DO list for after common test (like plan year-end taiwan trip, make eclub farewell gifts, do board, rach’s bday present..). So many things to do, so little time!

The day before my chi lit paper, i chanced upon disney channel over dinner and “meet the robinsons” was on air! HAHA and then i decided to watch the whole show. omg, so sad la, cant believe i cried watching a cartoon. “KEEP MOVING FORWARD”. that’s what the show was trying to tell the audience. and it got stuck in my head for the whole week omg. it’s so true know, whatever we do in life, we just have to keep moving forward. no matter what. such a waste if we get stuck and cant pick ourselves up and go ahead with life. because at the end of the day, life goes on. 

many thoughts i wanted to blog about over the past few weeks, but just very lazy to on my comp. all i can say is, people disappoint you all the time. ): 

thought no.1: 
i can see in you one of the many parallels in life.
we were, and now we are. i was the one, and now you are the one. 
i thank you for having more morals than you.
you who have no (real) friends.
and never knew why.
you who made the promises and never kept to it, 
been a while, and you’re still the same old you.
pity. 

thought no.2: 
it’s either i’m thinking too much, or it had always been like that. but from what my memory says, i dont remember us being the way we are now. it’s either we don’t know there’s a problem, dont care, or just too afraid to face it. either that or there’s no problem at all. insignificant in your life, i suppose. overshadowed by the many things in life, the many other people that stay in your heart. but i was never part of your heart to begin with. right?  

why do i always get emo at the end whenever i’m blogging? ):