#144 Depressing Thoughts

Realised over the week: 

That i had been making time for those who dont have time for me, and dont for those who do.
I need to be shot.  
Really tired of always taking the initiative and making the first move. I always believed that the world is a beautiful place, but reality hits hard, and i guess people just disappoint you all the time. And so, i’ve decided to take a break a few weeks back, to not plan group outing anymore until the A’s are over. Afterall, i guess it’s better to spend time with those who really cherish you. And one thing i’ve learnt from here: never depend on other’s for your own happiness. Should have learnt that a long long time ago, but it didnt really hit me, until someone depended on me for their’s. And that’s when, i see. 

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Met up with mengmei today for transformers! haha the plot was so predictable, and i think the fighting scene between the robots were like 20min long. was kindda bored, which explains how my hand was flinging around and split all the popcorn on the cinema seat! ooops. ): other than that, the action’s really great! 

Games gang outing tomorrow! (: can’t wait to see them after so long. haha it’s like our tradition to play board games together after exams, though i just played on monday during g2 outing.

Kbox on tuesday was really awesome. Wan Ting is so crazy la! HAHA she screams, not sing. I love my eclub gang. Craziest bunch of shit ever. haha. And i must admit, it was really fun bullying kenneth. (sorry man!) Finally getting to bully people, instead of how my i&e comm keeps bullying me. (ah, the parallels of life). And rachel wore dress for like the first time omg! We just love to interrupt couples having privacy by the river. Saw one couple that was on the verge of like booking a hotel room la please. At esplanade. And then we went around like tourists, touring one fullerton and fullerton hotel, getting chased out of the “glass frame” by the security guard, and then settling down outside the asian civillisation museum for a nice talk. (: love them all.

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Did you know, that by (i dunno which year), one in two people will have cancer? ): got news yesterday that cancer had taken away the life of the parent of someone dear. Yet again, 2nd time this year. My sister cried upon hearing it, and i was so numbed. which i didnt know why. Life is worth treasuring. I really hope that the family will have the strength to bear the loss. I know if it’s me, i wont. And we really shouldnt support diamonds. Firstly, the diamonds are the product of many innocent lives at sierra leone. and, yet again, the wake is at the diamond room. (i know this has no link). Cancer is scary, and i hope you are alright. Or will be alright soon

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Never, never, impose your beliefs upon others. 
You left me so lost for words, and now i know my faith is not as strong as i thought it was. But i know, i wont have to face this alone.