The Other Side of Me

i like the smileys, so me. haha. how many sad faces can you spot?

Many thanks to my uncle and aunt and my sis for doing the chalk thing for my birthday celebration yesterday! (: haha they drew on the big space outside my grandma’s flat, omg i hope the hdb wont come and kill them or something. And thanks to my mummy for the monsters inc ice cream cake! omg how did she know that monsters inc is my all time favourite movie!! (: and for all the gifts and angpows, thank you thank you. (:

the chalk on the walkway to my grandma's house, oopsie the pic is slanted (im super lazy to change, you tilt your head ok!)

the "happy birthday" on the floor

the drawing on the wall that belongs to hdb (oh no, gonna have a hard time scrubbing it out man)

monsters inc cake! (cream is gone cause they smeared it onto my face) HAHA

pleasently surprised yesterday, thank you so much! (haha to think i thought that my family have no creativity omg). and thanks yang sheng for the taiwan street directory as a present! omg it’s really shocking too. shall use it when i go to taiwan, meanwhile, just flip through it and see the flashbacks in my head.

I’m so freaking stressed out for chinese lit. first time crying because of academics today, what is this.

got told that my expression sucks and basically my language cannot make it. it’s like the teacher gave us the essay outline, and all we had to do was to give examples, and yet i couldnt do it. everyone got 15/20 and above when i got only 5/20. and it’s not for one essay, its for 2. he said, the only way out of this is to memorise. how to? when it’s like one whole play, 3 acts, about 20 characters, 34729347 characteristics, and that is only 1/6 of 1/2 of my chinese lit syllabus.

dont remind me bout history and econs because i havent touched them yet.

and then it sucks to know that my teacher is leaving during prelims, so that means that i have to clear every freaking doubt before that, and i’m only left with tomorrow, wed, thurs and next fri. stupid teachers day, what a weird time. was thinking of like totally banking these 2 precious weeks i have left on this 1/6 of my 1/2 of my syllabus, but that is damn stupid. come to think of it, we can never really finish studying. finish this stack of notes, and there’s more waiting. finish this set of questions and you can always find more. like from 2008 you can find questions tracing all the way back to when the syllabus first began, and the question is still applicable today. you feel so incompetent just looking at the amount of work waiting for you. and when i sit down and do the work, my mind just goes blank.

first time feeling this way, and i think im not the only one here. it’s like the a’levels bring out the worst in you. and then, casey’s words comes to my mind, “the a’levels is like the hardest exam in your entire life”, and it’s true. i miss my carefree pae life. ): a05, sa, casey leong, ki, running out of the sch gate when the security guard goes to the toilet, island cremery, ponning lectures and playing cards, waffle from the nice nice stall, ham omelette, ponning pe, spending time together aft sch as a class, laughing at and with ms lee, havoc, and just about everything.

saw the requirements for nus and smu today. if i dont get B for chinese lit, im DEAD. and its a language paper, my language as of today cannot make it, how am i supposed to pass my compo and compre! ):

should just kill myself now. ways to kill yourself: 1) sleep in an aircon car with the engine on (die pretty), 2) jump down (die ugly), 3) stab yourself (ouch, pain), 4) kill someone and get executed (too long a time lag), 5)traffic drugs and get caught (where to find the drugs!), 6) stand in the center of a busy road (will just get sued for obstructing traffic), 6) a’levels (too tortourous).

feel like scolding a lot of vulgarities.

I think it’s a bad omen, because in the past 2 days, i’ve seen 2 panels of glass break. OMG.

First was in the LEP room, the whole glass window just shattered out of nowhere, i think it’s cause the people downstairs were cutting grass and a rock flew and hit the window. haha, and then the whole window just shattered, quite pretty. (: Informed the teacher who informed the OM who nearly caught me for eating in the room when he came in to check.

And then there’s yesterday, Eclub notice board panel shattered. Really bad sign ah that one. The twins were putting notices in and then trying to pull the glass panel back, then the whole thing crashed onto the floor, and they both just stood there and stare at each other. Luckily no one as hurt. Called the uncle to come and clean up, informed ms wong, wrote down their names and all. I think they were both still in shock la, but one pres and one director leh, must act quickly on your feet! cannot just stone down there and wait  for people to come to you okay. (: stupid kenneth kwek didnt even help la, just sit down there and laugh. wth.

yesterday was quite fruitful too. went to meet the math hod, cause he came to class and ask if we got any problem cause tag asked him to. well, we did, but we couldnt say cause someone was staring at us. So after school, went to meet him. Shan’t say what we talked about because someone might be reading this. But let’s just say that it was good! and i can finally see the light at the end of our math tunnel. haha!

Went to united sq to see the lego clearence sale. to note that it was almost sold out, basket.

Im starting to like history, because at least now i can make some sense out of it! haha

1. DAISO OPENED AT RIVERVALE MALL TODAY! swear it’s like the vivo store + the plaza sing store. SUPER DUPER BIG. LOVE IT. felt like buying so many on the spur of the moment buys, but after limiting myself to $10 then i decided not to. BUT I STILL ENDED UP WITH MANY IMPULSE BUYS! ): need to save money to go maldives! ): ): ):

2. OMG THE MALDIVES PROMO IS SO FREAKING CHEAP. I WANT TO GO MALDIVES ): save money save money save money!

3. dont eat = lose weight + save money (that shall be my motto for the next 4 months, jiayou!)

4. go school, go mug, go home sleep. go school, go mug, go home sleep. got school, go out, go home sleep. life is boring, i miss my friends ): yiwei and yuexi and lala and clown. ):

5. MONDAYS DINNERS ARE THE BEST (: AND SO ARE MONDAY AND THURSDAYS LUNCHES (: haha these are the reasons why i’m not ponning school although they are the shortest and most redundant days of the week.

6. i need some spiritual force to give me a super mega absorbent brain, so that i can remember everything i’ve studied so that i only have to look through them once. either that, or i need doraemon and his incredible machines.

7. DISNEY PIXAR CARTOONS ALWAYS MAKE ME CRY. i cried like 3 times during monsters inc, and twice during finding nemo, i think twice as well for toy story, and once for cars. AND UP MADE ME CRY LIKE 4 or 5 TIMES OMG. ): my new dream: to work in pixar and make people cry.

8. was showering that day, and it came across my mind, how as i grew up, i slowly lost track of all my dreams and what i want to do in the future. to the extent of not knowing what i even want to do now. And then, i went to dig out my sec4 organiser, and saw that i used to want to be a NOBEL PRIZE WINNER OMG. and a PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR and to FLY TO THE MOON. now, they just seem like funny little jokes that i’d realistically laugh over, and brush aside.

9. i dont know what i want to do after A’s.

10. it’s scary to know that, the next 8 weeks WILL DETERMINE the next 8 years of my life. ): i’m so unprepared for the A’s.

The media kills.

Just look at facebook.
Deprive people of the time they had to look at the world, to notice the sunset.
And it spoils relationships.
Create superficial ones, destroys genuine ones.
Changes what “is” to “was”,
allow stalkers to flourish and
deprives people of the basic need of privacy.

Where are the days of writing sweet handwritten notes and booking the person out for a dinner date just to talk to him/her?
Where are the days of long telephone conversations that bring unending joy?

Maybe i should stop using facebook.
Just makes me emo only. ):
Stupid people.